tadi baru saya post new entry, im gonna bring my umi to clinic tomorrow.
tp saya xtahan tgk she's just lying on the bed. no correct treatment, no correct medicine, and she can't accompany me. tapi segar bila bercakap ttg masa depan. for her number third and fifth :)
so malam ni, lepas maghrib saya terus bersiap utk bawa dia ke clinic.
macam biasalah. banyak ragamnya. maghrib dah 7 lebih, perginya 8lebih. tunggu abah mandi mengambil masa pula. dia suruh saya drive umi ke clinic. 
saya pandang umi, tanya " berani ? "
dia jawab " berani. boleh je." =)
so, i drive her to the clinic. 
" sabik kato dohhhh "
ramainyaaaa... semua seat penuh. beratur siap nk daftar nama.
umi terus tarik diri. 
" xnakla ikah. xlarat nk tunggu. kita pergi beli makanan dulu, nanti mlm skt,kita datang.boleh je. dia terima lagi."
okla. kite pergi beli makanan dulu. balik rumah dulu, abah pn pasti lapar. 
tengahtengah makan, 
umi : " eh ikah, rasa ok dah skt. wak rugi jah g. nk segar dh " 
saya jawab " eh xle. atlist umi kena makan antibiotik ke..yg umi makan tu supplement. atlist, nak tahula apa xkena dgn umi " -seakan akan memaksa, macam mana pn kena ke klinik jg.-
dia syp. tgh cari alasan kot apa nk bg . pandai umi slow2 tarik xnak jmpa doktor.padahal dah sampai klinik dah.
dia jawab " ok2. kalu umi xsehat mano lagi esok, ikah bawak umi g klinik esk. tg dulu malam ni macam mana"
yg saya takutnya, dia bt2 sihat dpn saya. 
alahai..saya cakap, macam mana ni, nk anak jadi doktor, tp umi pn takut nk jumpa doktor. dia ckp xpela. umi xpayah g hospital, ikah jadi doktor private umi rawat kt umah je..
inshaALLAH. doa tu doa..=)
perut pn dah kenyang, masingmasing dah masuk bilik. saya pula mengupdate.


to a mum : take care always.shhhh.. ily. ( u'll read this. i know it )

to a dream : im hoping thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much to you :)

to an enemy : anyone? i never ask for you. i can judge myself. my close teman(s) too may judge me. know me well and you may TRY to judge me. Allah lebih berhak menilai dan Dia lebih adil dalam menilai segalanya.. i'm trying to be good to you. pls be nice to me. saya sayangkan setiap ukhuwah :) mereka itu cantik :)
i'm trying --> 

but still, if im wrong, you may come and prove it. everyone does mistake.


to myself : accept the reality dear..semua ini gerak geri Tuhan dan semua berlaku dgn izin Dia..

dear ikah :

FOR EVERYTHING HAPPENED, THERE MUST BE REASON FOR THAT.

AND YOU MUST THINK POSITIVE AND BE NICE ALWAYS.

FOR EVERY WORDS THEY ASSUMED, LEAVE IT TO HIM, DIA MAHA MENGETAHUI. :)

make a change first from inside you, ikah. 

night people. nak habiskan  Denyut Kasih Medik. :)